This is the second post of this name tonight. But let me get a little more in-depth, if you will...
Frustration?
I need to do better. I know who I am. I know what I can accomplish. But I've never done it without pot or anti-depressants. And, to be completely honest, I'm floundering. Even with, things aren't what they used to be. I'm 250 pounds. Two. Hundred. And fifty. Pounds. I make 30 thousand dollars a year. I drive a shit car. I have no clothes. I live in a stupid apartment. But I have love.
Is it enough? For now? I guess. In the long run? No.
But how do I get going?
I don't know.
And I think I'm really afraid that I won't find my way again.
I'm drowning.
All I need is a branch.
But where is it?
And, if I reaching out for it, am I not also pushing it away?
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