I blame my grandfather

When it comes to my life, I seem to struggle between the two worlds of all or nothing. And because I've spent so much effort trying to rid myself of the extremes, the idea of dieting freaks me out. Okay, I'll be completely honest with you - I kind of don't want to put in the effort. I totally don't want to put in the effort. Hmmm... I think I just answered the question of why I'm so fat. I have not, however, answered the question of what I'm going to do about it. Meh. Baby steps, bitches.